It's just me, my happiness

Some people say it's about the money that you make, the house you live in or cars you ride. Some also say it's your job, career, how many businesses you have or how famous you are. Many of my friends said that it's about family they build, husbands, wives or cute children they have. Younger friends said it's the existence among friends, countries they've visited or wild experiences they've ever done in their life.

Mary, a friend of mine who blessed with two cute kids in her late 20's, complained about her boring and overwhelming life. She and her working husband are struggling to raise their growing kids and nearly have no time for themselves. She envy her friends who still hanging out late at nights or chasing for post graduate degree or simply just doing their hobbies. She is not happy.

John, barely know him. He's a man some girls might dream. He has everything, no need to mention each of them. He travels a lot, Europe and all exotic countries in South, for him, money has never been a problem. But he was there, sit with me, had cups of coffee, talked about family he's always dream of. It seemed that everything he do in his life would've more enjoyable if he had a wife and a son of his dream.

A few months ago, I met Cynthia, my best friend, oh I envy her style, she always amaze me. She got the look and also brain. She lives in a big city of Manhattan, with big career and big opportunities to grow bigger. She marry a rich man ... I mean, she once ever wanted. She was driving her Porsche when she told me she never loved him. She marry him because her parent made her. So what in the world is happening in to sacred marriage and live happily ever after?

I watched E! and so many celebrities had their privacy extremely violated by the paparazzis and they had limitation to express what and who they really are because of it. Then I think they're not free happy people then.

Here I am, try to impress my family, my friends and my boy friend about how good I am in acting but I still haven't got important role in every audition I have ever took. I thought if I had one and maybe I will make so much money from it, walk in the red carpet and make them proud. My high school friends will excitedly open the year book to tell their friends that I was their classmate and wasn't so fancy as I am now. I thought I'd be very very happy.

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Flash in my head ...
God had given me so many things I need.
I know that HAPPINESS is here, deep inside my heart ...
I now realized that HAPPINESS is an attitude, most people are about as happy as they make up their minds to be
I will never be happy if I continue to search for what happiness consists of. I will never live if I am looking for the meaning of life.

Because I'm happy, I love my family, my friends and my LOVE one. Now I know that success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. I know I must be happy to ACT so the passion will bring me to the top.